Effectively Empty Cliche

Don't be afraid to ask questions. Its scary not to know the answers but no one expects you to. You aren't alone. It's not because there is a boy that kisses you behind glass doors behind glass doors, it is because you alone have the power to be a part of something outside yourself. Remember you are small. Remember its okay to be a little lost and its okay to be a little scared. Thats life hun. One day someone else will write you this letter; until then, find comfort in your own words and remember how lucky you are to have so many people around you.

Just breathe. Things will turn out how they are meant to. Life is worth the risk, the challenge, and the heartbreak because now is all we have. Take full advantage of life, of every moment of everyday. Tomorrow will be dealt with and solved, but for now revel in the sunlight of this moment.

Not Worth My Time

I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU!

Not just YOU but I hate all of you.

Remember how glad you are that he's gone Meghan. Remember how hurt he left you, and remember what an asshole he's being. Remember that you neither need or want that in your live. So remember his lying ass can have cute Japanese inside jokes with however many stupid asian skanks he wants to. Remember he isn't worth your time, effort, or tears. He's not coming back and thats a damn good thing because you deserve better. Remember all those times he let you down? Remember when Tata died and his pussy ass didn't go see him? Remember that he was never man enough or in love with you enough to work things out with your dad? Remember that you had to BEG him to talk to your mom? Remember that he's a mother fucking liar because he said he couldn't come see you whom he 'loved so much' and now mother fucker is in San Bernardino hooking up with some hoe and sleeping off his drunk until sometime tomorrow? Remember that he didn't even get you a Birthday present? Remember that he told you it was going to work out? Remember he lied about LOVING YOU?!

FUCK THAT!
You don't need him. And he does NOT deserve you. The person that ends up loving you will drive 3 hours to see you for 20 minutes. The person that ends up loving you will be real with you. The person that ends up loving you will write you songs and sing you to sleep. The person that ends up loving you won't flirt with other girls, or send you drunk texts that were meant for other girls. The person that ends up loving you will love you too much to EVER want to be JUST your friend again. And if they ever loved you at all they would never ask you to be their friend. The person that ends up loving you will go to the ends of the earth just to make sure you're okay..

For now take a deep breathe. You can do this. You don't have to climb mountain tops yet. You just have to see that you ARE better off without him. Please remember that as much as it hurts to see him change into someone you don't like, you should be grateful not to be with him. Even more importantly, don't let the actions of men dictate your emotions. Yea you got ditched again, put below another priority, but that has nothing to do with you. You are more than enough. You are loving, kind, strong willed, powerful, beautiful, sensitive, passionate, and compassionate. If they can't see that, its their loss. You now have the wonderful opportunity to be heartbroken, and eventually find someone that will sweep you off your feet and hold you in the stars, that will LOVE YOU LIKE YOU SHOULD BE LOVED!

For now just breathe. The person that will love you is out there, but they will fall between many new loves and new heartbreaks. You are powerful. You are beautiful. You are stronger than you know. Sigues luchando. Keep fighting, and make that fight worth while. Fight for yourself. Fight for those things that make you happy, and fuck the rest. "The only things in life that matter are the ones that make you smile."

What's Next

This is the first step into the unexpected. The big picture, the future, it's all a blur, but it's so vibrant I can't help but smile. It's still scary as hell, and I don't know if I'm actually where I want to be, but I'm being pulled forward by an uncontrollable force. The only name I can give it is time. It moves past us, with us, by us, away from us, in lue of emotion and all we can do is use it to the best of our own advantage. "Enjoy every moment because every second we spend upset, sad, or anxious is a moment of happiness we can never regain." Life is a big, complicated, heartbreaking, passionate, exhilarating journey that is worth the pain and is worth the fight. So fight. Don't dwell on the confusion of heartbreak and look forward to the day love hits you in the face again. Most importantly, please don't be too afraid to let it back in.

pathetic.

It seems like yesterday you loved me
but I know its been a long time gone
Still tomorrow is coming
and i'll have to move on

This is so childish so weak
it pains me just to see,
but it seems its the only thing
that will just let me be.

I hate you for giving up
I hate you for letting go
You say you'll be back
But that day will never show.

I have to guard my heart now
build up that ugly wall
to keep you from getting in
just to watch me fall

I know you don't love me
I just don't know why
I do hope you're happy
I also hope you cry

I'm so glad I loved you
I'm so glad you were mine
but now I'm feeling empty
and all I do is hide

I don't know what's in tomorrow
but I do know I'll find
something better than today
and god I hope it doesn't rhyme

Someday someone will love me
Someday someone will care
Someday I'll be someone's everything
but I know you won't be there.

Fate Will Find Me

"Hope guides me. It is what gets me through the day and especially the night. The hope that after you're gone from my sight it will not be the last time I look upon you."

I don't believe he's coming back. I believe that he wants to believe he's coming back, but its not going to happen. I hope he proves me wrong. I hope he fights for me like he said he would. I hope he'll love me again, but that is completely out of my hands. The only thing I can do it hope.

I know I have a beautiful life with beautiful people in it and the most incredible experiences ahead of me. I love him, and I hope I can be his friend and I hope we can still be a part of each others journey because I am so excited to see what happens for him next. I'm not giving myself false hope. I'm not going to wait by the phone and try to make him love me again. If he doesn't end up loving me as much as I love him, he isn't worth falling apart again. However, for being with me through so much and for helping me grow into who I am today, he is worth keeping in my life. I am glad I gave him my heart. I am glad and lucky and blessed to have fallen in love with him. I would not be the same person had I not taken a chance on him.

Now it is time for greater places and heavier things. It is time to jump first and fear later. I'm hoping for the best, and preparing for the worst. I will love life and continue to be the person I am becoming. I am who I've been waiting for. Beyond the pain and the heartbreak you will see that love is an experience and you are lucky to have been in it. Love is amazing and fate will find me where ever I go.

Remember This

Love him, but remember this:

"If the tables were turned he wouldn't have to do anything to get you back because you love him so much, so why would you have to do anything to get him back?"

"There is either something that is getting in the way that is making him think he doesn't love or he doesn't love you anymore."

"If he figures out that he made a mistake and that he loves you as much as you love him he will come back to you without you being his friend."

Hope and Tears

I'm not entirely sure where to begin. I'm not entirely sure what happened. He let me go, but I didn't want to leave. I don't want to leave, and life just doesn't feel the same. I'm had three really great days with new friends that have comforted me and made me laugh, but I couldn't get him off my mind. I never stop thinking about him. He used to make every smile, every laugh, every breathe a little more enjoyable. The world looked a little brighter when I could call him and hear that he loved me. What happened? The world isn't as dark as I thought it would be without him, but it still pales in comparison to the colors he put in my day.

I'll be his friend-his best friend, but I want to be his world again, because he's still mine.. I'll be his friend in hopes that one day we will be laughing together and he will feel my love again. The only thing he will be able to do is look in my eyes and kiss me like he's missed me for a million years. I just want to hold him. Everyday thats thats the only thing I want. I want to run my fingers throw his hair and feel his heartbeat again. I can't explain it. I have hope, but I'm so scared he's going to love being my friend, more than being my everything.

Adele - Make You Feel My Love